I visit my Second Daughter on Monday's. Tonight, she made a simple 
salmon dinner with brown rice, which works well with my diabetes. It was
 a very good dinner. After dinner, she showed me
 the proofs of her photo shoot. She's doing some amateur modeling and 
she's very excited about it. She should be.  She is a very, Very beautiful 
young woman. The proofs she showed me were outstanding!
I haven't had the best day. I'm feeling old, forgotten, unlovely, and 
undesirable. When I was Debra's age, I wouldn't have been anywhere near 
as beautiful as she is, but... but... It doesn't really matter.
I gave up my best years so my First Daughter and my Son could have something like a normal Dad.
Tonight... tonight I am feeling the loss of those years, the times when I
 might have been beautiful and desirable. 
It hurts...
It aches...
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
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