My cousin sent me a link to an Italian "Free Hugs" video on youtube today. It made me cry. Alot. And the music, the song, Leonard Cohen's Hallelujah, moved me hard. I looked it up again and listened to k.d.langs version. I cried a good deal more. I looked up the lyrics so I got it right . I read someone's comments somewhere that Bon Jovi's version was their favorite, so I went there, too. While I was listening and crying to Bon Jovi, I read these lyrics and my ex-wife came to mind. And then the rivers flowed from my eyes.
And remember when I moved in you
The holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah
You say I took the name in vain
I don't even know the name
But if I did, well really, what's it to you?
There's a blaze of light
In every word
It doesn't matter which you heard
The holy or the broken Hallelujah
I did my best, it wasn't much
I couldn't feel, so I tried to touch
I've told the truth, I didn't come to fool you
And even though
It all went wrong
I'll stand before the Lord of Song
With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah
I wasn't very truthful about my gender and there were a lot of lies from there. But I always told the truth about loving her. And when I stand before my Poppa, there will be nothing on my tongue for her but Halleluja.